Right now I know I am my absolute worst self. I’m angry for absolutely no reason. I seriously feel like murdering someone. (I’m not kidding.) I don’t want to talk to anyone or be around anyone. I am having violent thoughts that I cannot even talk about. I want to do things to myself I cannot even talk about. I want other people to do things to me I can’t even talk about. This is not me. And yet… it is me. Who am I kidding. All the other stuff is just an act. This awful, violent, angry, rageful person is all that I truly am. I have turned into my worst self. I am trapped in a nightmare I can’t escape cause I cannot escape myself. I wish I could. I would violently cut myself from myself and be free once and for all. Sometimes I wish someone would come kill me once and for all. Please come and brutally murder me. Free me from this world that deserves better than the likes of me, deserves better than the filth of me.