This weekend is really hard for me. I want so much to be productive, to be cheerful, to reach out to people, to get stuff done, but I can’t. I can’t even feel connected to people at the moment. They all feel a million miles away. Even my partner, who is just in the next room.
I’m having so many feelings and so few feelings at the same time. Almost like the feelings I’m having, I’m experiencing them through a tunnel or something. I can feel them and I know they are there, but they too feel a million miles away. Sadness, loneliness, anger. Those are the main ones.
Perhaps I shall just go back to sleep. Fingers crossed I’ll be better when I wake.