I had a dream last night about the friend I let go of. She was an online friend but in my dream I went to visit her. That’s something we had always talked about. In my dream we went to the store and in the store there was a section of stuffed animals. I told her not to look, and I picked out a stuffed bear I thought she’d like and I was going to buy it for her and surprise her with it. I ran up to the cashier and asked how much it was. She said one hundred pounds. I asked how many US dollars that was and the woman said “$125”. I was shocked at how expensive it was and said nevermind. I was sad that I was unable to get the bear for her.
Then we were driving on the highway and I noticed that this big truck was following us. When we got to where we were going – her house I think – the truck followed us off the highway and parked right behind us with his headlights glaring. I got out of the car and told my friend to wait there. I’m not sure what I was planning on doing, but all I knew was that I needed to protect my friend.
I don’t actually remember any more of the dream. But I woke up with these strong feelings of love and connection toward this person.
Did I do the right thing in ending the friendship? I don’t know. I do know that I miss her. I miss the connection we had.
But… It was just a dream right? The real world is right here, right now, staring me in the face, and this is what I need to focus on.