Just when I thought the body memories were getting better, they have returned with a vengeance.
I want to scream.
I don’t know why this is happening. I don’t know what this is connected to. I thought it was related to the prenatal trauma, but the time doesn’t seem to match.
I can’t describe how I’m feeling. Every cell in my body is screaming. I have the unexplained urge for someone to beat me to a bloody pulp. To crush my body. That somehow that would calm this bodily angst.
Sorry for the graphic nature of this post. I’m just having all these crazy body sensations and don’t know what to do with them.
I wish I could lie down and have someone run over me with a semi-truck. Perhaps that would calm these awful sensations.