I’ve been very sick these last few days, and this has kept my mind on not much other than my physical pain and discomfort. Today I’m starting to feel a little better. But as the physical discomfort subsides, a deep emotional pain has begun to surface. Specifically, a heavy sense of loneliness. It’s beginning to hit me that my partner and I are breaking up. That I don’t have that solid, constant source of love and support anymore. I know it was my decision, but somehow that knowledge isn’t providing comfort today. The only thing that prevails is the loneliness. I guess this is just one of those things that I have to just accept. And wade through. And sit in. And allow to envelop me. I have to remind myself things will get better. The loneliness won’t stay forever. Just a passing visitor. That I have good things on the horizon. I suppose it’s just hard to see those things right now.