About Me

I never know what to say in response to this. How do I describe myself. There are many different aspects to “me” I could write about. But… let’s just give it a whirl and see what happens.

I am a thirty-something gay woman. I have pretty much struggled my whole life with anxiety and depression. Much of my life never quite made sense to me. I always felt that there was something inherently “wrong,” I just could never pinpoint what it was. At some point along the way, I was diagnosed with PTSD. That was the beginning of things starting to make sense, although this was only one piece of the puzzle, and a very incomplete one at that. I still struggled and struggled and seemed to get nowhere. Then I was diagnosed with DID – Dissociative Identity Disorder – about a year ago. That may or may not have been accurate – I’m still in the process of finding out. But understanding that I experience dissociation, and that I more like than not have a dissociative disorder, has been extremely helpful in understanding myself and my life better. This past year has been transformative, albeit not without struggle. I still know very little about the trauma that may have led to my level of dissociation when I was younger, but I have to trust that it will be unveiled when the time is right.

I love animals. I have two cats and a dog. I have a very loving and wonderful significant other, my beautiful and amazing partner who holds my hand through every step of my healing. I love children and my job at the moment is taking care of a young child full-time. I love being outdoors and traveling. I am very lucky to live in a place where the weather encourages one to get outside and enjoy it. I love to hike and to bike ride. I love the ocean and my favorite part about the ocean is swimming in it. It makes me feel whole. It understands me.

I also love rain. Watching it, listening to it, walking in it… can’t get enough of it when it graces us with its presence.

I want to achieve a lot in my life, however I do struggle daily with mental health issues. I have social anxiety that rears its head fairly often, and that makes it hard to get out and be in the world doing what I want to be doing. Also, my dissociation is also a factor that holds me back from doing all that I really want to do. Some days, all I can do after work is just come home and zone out, or come home and curl up into a ball. However, I am working toward healing, and hopefully one day I won’t feel like these things have such a hold over me as they do now.

Thanks so much for stopping by and reading. And if you feel comfortable sharing anything about yourself, or commenting on anything I’ve written, I would love to hear what you have to say!

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25 responses to “About Me

    • Wow, awesome!!!! Thank you so much! I’m leaving on a trip tomorrow for a couple days, but will definitely post about it when I get back. Thank you! I’m honored!

  1. Thank you for following us! We are going to follow you tooo! Hugs to you,
    Carol anne

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  3. Tag! Your it! I tagged you, see the latest post on it for your questions, I would have posted a link to it but I cant seem to do it. :d leets play!

  4. The Quiet Borderline (back in hospital)

    I have awarded you with the Strong Person Award. An award I made myself and has been a pleasure to award all of you well deserving people.

    Feel free to collect your award here: http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/2012/08/19/strong-person-award/

    All the best,

    The Quiet Borderline
    http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/

  5. i am enjoying reading about your journey and wish you all the best! also, i nominated you for the very inspired blogger award! check it out http://jilliankermani.wordpress.com/2012/08/31/inspired-and-versatile-blogger-awards/?preview=true&preview_id=188&preview_nonce=d905871d6c

  6. I just found you and I love that pic of the girl floating in the water. I was doing that very thing just a few weeks ago, and you’ve inspired me to share my pictures of that day on my blog. Looking forward to reading your journey through this monster known as ptsd..

  7. Hi, I’ve nominated you for the One Lovely Blog Award if you’re interested and wish to accept. Details can be found on my blog.

  8. I’m deeply impressed with your honesty and confidence! I read your ‘About me’ several times because it’s really touching and I like to follow you and your blog πŸ™‚

  9. Not really sure how I stumbled upon your blog, but reading your posts and “About Me” section, I found that we have a lot in common…looking forward to reading more from you! πŸ™‚

  10. If you’re still out there, I hope you’re doing well, Brandic. Take care!

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