Breathe in. Breathe out. I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.
I panicked and called my partner at work and told her I couldn’t do it anymore. I was sobbing. She begged for me to just hold on. To not make any decisions yet. I obliged.
I texted her and told her I’m hanging by a thin thread and don’t know how much longer I can hang on. I told her I feel as though both my heart and my spirit are broken. And that I have nothing left to give. She texted me back and told me I don’t have to give anything. Just let her prove to me that she is able to be the partner I deserve. I just don’t know.
When your heart is dead toward someone, is it possible to revive it? Like, a heart-strings CPR kinda thing?
We have another therapy session scheduled for Saturday. Perhaps I can hang on til then. I just don’t know anymore.